I feel like I need to make a choice and I am scared because I don’t know what the outcome will be. I may destroy everything I have.
I have had a very stressful life, but I am finally at peace with myself and I can now say I love myself – after much hard work.
I have met a man who is beautiful in every way. I love him dearly, warts and all, and would love to be his wife and have his child one day. I have known him for two years now.
I have two young children. My daughter is aware of him, but my son knows nothing about him. I have always kept him separate from my family, and he has never shown any interest in them. Not even my closest friends know about him. However, we love each other to bits and spend time together when we choose and enjoy every minute of it.
I have recently been fantasizing about living with him and having his child. I don’t know how to discuss this with him, because I am afraid of losing him altogether. What if he doesn’t want any changes? What if I lose him altogether?
What should I do?
Why is it that we hold on to relationships long past their natural end?
Think of a friendship that no longer exists. Do you still remember how your friend insulted or deserted you? You gained new friends, but you still feel that hurt.
Remember that supervisor who made your life such hell that you left to get a new job? You smile every time you think what a sad sod that supervisor is, and how much better off you are now. Or you still resent the opportunity that you missed as a result of that person, even though you gained much more from the new job than from the old one.
Then of course there is your marriage. You have known for a long time that