Hating another person is not a solution to anything. Finding a more practical means of resolving a problem is much more useful.
I love my mother but I feel she does not love me. She has always expected me to agree with her and do as I get told, or else she would physically attack me.
I now spend most of my time at boarding school where I have to work very hard to keep up. I come home feeling exhausted and just want to relax and catch a breath. However, everything ends up in a fight with my mother – and I mean a physical fight where I have to defend myself and watch out so that I don’t hurt her.
For example, today I accidentally stepped on her foot – I did not see her standing right behind me. I apologized, but she started screaming at me and grabbed my hair, and then started hitting me. I first started screaming as well, but I then started laughing to try and defuse the situation and also to restrain myself.
I have noticed that whenever I go home for a weekend, my hands start to shake. How can I deal with my mother without fighting and hating her?
I get very angry at myself when I let something bother me. I have friends and family who consistently forget my birthday, even though they have asked me for it several times. I know they care about me, but do they prove me wrong when they forget my birthday every year? Maybe if I was more special to them, they would make an effort to remember.